My apology

WARNING!!!

THIS IS ONLY FOR THOSE THAT CAN STAND ALL THE "JIWANGNESS" AND THE EMOTIONS....STRICTLY FOR ADULTS ONLY!!! PARENTAL ADVISORY IS NOT NEEDED..

Last night something happen 2 me...

i thought i was being professional...

but i was wrong...

so dammnn wrong...

and because of my stupidity i lost the person that i'm in love with...

i'm going out of my mind...

i get the awful truth last night...

he still hooked on his past...

there's nothing more i can do...

i believe him when he said he loved me...

my friend keep telling me i'm stupid...

i guess i am...

nas...

i'm sorry...

i should have listen 2 u...

i know your're mad at me...

i'm sorry that i made u worried bout me..

i'm sorry for being so childish..

i know that u r angry at me caused u love me..

caused i'm your friend..

we've been through lots of good and bad times together...

u never gave up on me...

u always supports me especially when i am down...

and i thank u for that...

thank you for being there for me...

friends till death rite??? :)

hariz...

i had such awesome time when i'm with u...

and everytime i said i love u i really do love u...

i'm sorry i made u mad...

it was not my attention...

the blame is on me...

i was doing thing without thinking...

i was so emotional..

i was madly in love with u...

again its my fault...

i'm sorry syg...

no matter how much sorry i am...

seems like u already has move on...

move on from me...

i only got my self 2 blame...

i was trying to be the best for u...

and i have promised 2 be the best..

but i'm not the best for u...

she is....

why cant u love me the way u love her??

u cant right??

u only have her in your heart...

i'm just nobody to u...

and i get it now...

i truly get it...

i was editing this before i get your text...

i make this to surprise u...

to tell u how much i appreciate u...

since i cant give it to u...

i'll just leave it here...

so that everyone can see how much i love u...

i love u

again...

i'm sorry for all the things that i've done...

guys...

sorry that this post is bit jiwang...

just trying to let it out off my chest...

i need support from u guys..

that all for now...

-roger n out-

me + you

happy happy joy joy...

hahahaha...

went out yesterday with my love...had so much time spending time with him...hehehe..he is so sweet...so cute till i cannot tahan already...cannot tahan???!!!! cannot tahan 2 cubit2 pipi dye la...aiyo....hahahaha...we went 2 the lake near kg jawa i think...as we walk side by side hand in hand...all of sudden i saw something...

a rainbow...so sweet so beautiful....let me share the joy n happiness with u guys...

even though rainbow dye sket je but still it look so nice...*he took this pic* :)

ngee...love him

sweet rite *perasan lg*

still got time for 1 more pic

hehehehe....had a really good time n i really do enjoy being with him...thank you syg for coming into my life n makes me happy...love u so much....

guys...sorry if i get bit emotional in this post..hehehe..its just theres too much love around me..hehehe..so i'm giving some back 2 u guys...

have fun spreading love...

-roger n out-

dude! grow up!

i have a friends...and we have our own group....we called ourselves "The Single Shitt Club" aka " The S Club"....we had so much fun hanging out together...laughing...making fun of each another...lots or memories together...especially when we went to Terengganu for our MGT class trip...it was hell of fun!!! since that we have become more closer to each other...lets be friends till death!!! yeah!!

friendship....is that even exist in his dictionary??? i've never even met someone that is much freaking sellfish like u...you called yourself a friend???? you're wrong...your nothing but a low life, backstabbing, good for nothing, copy cat, asshole!!

huh! so glad to get it out from me....

to my dear friend Anyz....chill k....like we all said life is karma...sooner or later he will get the taste of his own medicine....u still have lots of friend that really care bout you....friends till the end k.....

to the asshole....dude!!! grow up!!!!

-roger n out-

telling the whole world

...meet the new men in my life...

sorry guys 4 not telling u earlier bout him..it all happen so fast...i'm so madly in love with him..he makes me happy..he makes me feel so special...i'm in the land of happily ever after like Cinderella... hahaha...so sengal...hahaha...neway guys...wish me luck k..

-roger n out-

loving every second of my life

happy...that is what i'm feeling right now..

but the question is...

how long will it last???

the answer is....

u'll be happy as long as u keep loving every second of my life...

think about it...does it makes sense???

maybe yes..maybe not...it up to the person how they looked at it....and how to interpret it in their own lives...

-roger n out-

to you

ko mmg mcm babi!

goodnyte....

-roger n out-

mama n abah

almost 2 weeks now...

i'm starting 2 feel homesick..huhuhu...but why when i'm here in segamat i feel like so damn bored n keep thinking bout home?

but when i'm at home sometimes i tends to feel boring too and cant wait to get back to segamat...aiyo...

mama n abah have been working so hard to raise me...i never really show them how thankful i am to have them as my parents..am i a bad daughter??? i'm the youngest in the family, can say that i'm the baby of family *baby tue* its true..baby is my nickname at home..i guess i am a bit spoiled sometimes..but not in terms of material okay *being serious*....hahaha...enough of that babbling...

abah is the oldest son in his family...he has been working so damn hard for his family n never give a damn about himself..*so proud of abah*..he loves his family..i still do remember when i was small, every months there must be someone will call him seeks help from him...most of it of course la financially...he never said no..but when the time comes when he needed help...where are they??? they dont even bother to call him..its sad isnt it...but abah never says anything.."let them be. maybe they are having their own problem." i cant believe it....that's how they repay my abah for what he has done for them??? abah work his ass of for them.. but they treat him like a stranger...hurm...*relax babe dont get to emotional*

hurm...

mama...she often said that she is the black sheep of the family...the rebellious one....when she was young she's the 1 that caused troubles..hehehehe...even so,she is the most kind hearted..mama is the second child from 4 siblings..they much better compared to abah's...there's one little thing that makes me cry everytime i thought of mama...she always say "biar kite susah, biar la ape pon orang nk ckpkn mama, asal mama ade abah, ade ija, ade baby dh cukup bg mama, mama x nk ape2 lg dah kt dunia ni"...mama...baby sayang sgt kt mama...

i'm so thankful....they love me...eventhough i'm not their own flesh and blood...some might have known and some might have not...that i'm adopted...i never know who were my birth parents are...i wish them well where ever they are..i am thankful for them for giving me away to mama and abah with no regrets....deep down inside of me i know that they did this because they love me too...

i'm so lucky arent i??? most of my friends have 2 parent in their lives but i have 4...they loved me unconditionly and so does my loved towards them...

mak,ayah...thank you for the sacrifice you've made..

mama, abah...thank you for having me in your life and loved me with all your heart...

thats all for now guys...-roger n out-

nothing is good enough

i don't know what the hell is wrong with u...first u said u love me....i ask y?? u said because i understand u..now??? i dont??? wht the fuck???? eh...please la...dont talk nonsense...well just who do u think u r??? u cant even take care of ur marriage..now i'm expecting miracles from u???

i was so freaking damn wrong!!! u never respect me...never says nice thing to me...never did anything good for me...i've come to my sense now...u wont be dumping...i'm the one tht is dumping u!!!

hahahahaha...

p/s : blah la!!! ade ak kesah????

undisclosed desire

there is something in me...but what is it?? have been trying to figure out for a week or so....hurm..is it just my imagination??? feel like an alien in my own body..didnt feel like it was me??? feeling like i'm stuck in someone else's body.."am i goin insane??" i figure...hurm...

so desperately seeking for an answer...but i'm still lost...what am i suppose to do?? i'm getting more n more confused...am i doing it the wrong way??? but what the hell did i do to deserve this kind of crap??? i want answers...not crap...

the thing inside me is getting more desperate to come out of me...trying to let it go...but i lost again....what am i to do??? i'm not strong enough...the desire is too strong...felt like shit...

have it this way..

muse

-unclosed desire-

I know you've suffered
But I don't want you to hide
It's cold and loveless
I won't let you be denied

Soothing
I'll make you feel pure
Trust me
You can be sure

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognise your beauty's not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

You trick your lovers
That you're wicked and divine
You may be a sinner
But your innocence is mine

Please me
Show me how it's done
Tease me
You are the one

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognise your beauty's not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

Please me
Show me how it's done
Trust me
You are the one

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognise your beauty's not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

try to enjoy...-roger n out-

the unexpected apology

"ak mntk maaf ats ape yg apit da wt dkt ko....
n ak xnk ad dndm antara ko n apit....
yg sudh 2 sdh la...."

hello!!!!

pompuan u ni gle ker bodo? haish...yg sudah 2 sudah la..its aesy for u to say but i'm the one that have to swallow the unthinkable pain...dh la ko yg rmpas dye dr ak dlu, ciap maki2 ak lg..than dye cr ak blik...x taw malu ker da ludah jilat blik???u guys r the most idiotic person i've i ever meet in my life...move on la..

now its history...all i can say is that "oi pompuan! ko pk ak batak sgt nk kt jntan mcm 2 ker??? kesah???"

hahahaha..totally loving this moment...anyway gtg...got 2 test to settle for tommorrow..wish me luck...